Yesssss so I uh, moved to Maryland about three months ago. My life has gotten kinda hectic since then. Like, so busy I can’t even write for fun like I used to. Or do much of anything not school related. #iguessimapublicschoolernow
Public school can be summed up in one (uppercase) word: CHAOTIC. Students are continually backstabbing and double crossing one another, the bathrooms are almost always filled with smoke and vapor (even the supervised ones), and some kids are so stressed they get mental breakdowns and anxiety attacks. Then they get made fun of because of their mental disability, because they can’t properly process the insanity of high school.
And don’t even get me STARTED on the homework. Homework should be a simple ten minute paper for each class going over concepts learned in the class, not the part of the lesson that the teacher was required to teach but didn’t get to it so now I have to finish it at home.
I stayed up past 11:30pm last night doing homework and studying for quarterly assessments today, and the night before that I was up until 2am. Both yesterday and today I went to the nurse because my head hurt and I couldn’t focus. Today I also had chest cramps and I completely zoned out during algebra without even realizing.
The nurse told me I was “fine”. Um, no?! I’m not fine? I’m getting about three or four hours of sleep at night, I’m stressed, and if I can’t concentrate I can’t pass quarterlies.
The hardest part for me to handle is the school bus. I’m the second to last person to get on and off every day, so the only free seat is in the back, next to someone who hates me, most likely because I’m new to public school and I’m still confused about some things. Also, I don’t laugh at his perverted jokes.
Public school isn’t all bad though. I really love my ASL, music technology, and photography classes. Apparently I have ADHD (or ADD now since ADHD doesn’t exist anymore) and I can’t sit still and do nothing. It drives me crazy. Normally I use my speed cube when that happens, but a couple teachers don’t let me use it. ASL is one of the two classes I have where my ADD doesn’t affect me. It’s also super fun, and I happen to have it with someone who’s probably one of my closest friends at school right now.
I’ve made a few friends at public school who are amazing. The kid in my ASL class is the first person who was actually nice to me when I first came to school and he makes me laugh so much.
Most people at my school are nice or don’t bother me, I think the only real time I gets bullied is on the school bus. It hurts, especially when someone I thought was a friend never stands up for me and just laughs along. I can stand up for myself, but then I always just end up getting in trouble. Typically I turn my music all the way up and try to block everything out.
So…yeah. That’s pretty much my life at the moment. I will continue to try to keep blogging, but it’s definitely not gonna be on a regular basis. I’m really sorry for disappearing for so long. I honestly didn’t mean to. I just haven’t actually had forty-five minutes to put together a blog post and edit it and post and ughhhh I wish I could fix the school system somehow. It’s so messed up.
Thanks for reading (: I’ll hopefully get another post up soon ❤